Here is a second excerpt:
The monk reemerged at the head of the stairs, accompanied by a bent old man leaning on the arm of a gaunt Templar. The Templar was wearing a loose, white, Templar habit belted with a red cord at the waist, rather than armor and surcoat, but there could be no mistaking the soldier beneath the soft robes. Although he paced his normally long strides to the shuffling of the invalid, his sharp eyes, which had so often squinted against the sun that they seemed permanently puckered, rushed ahead to the transept in anticipation.
Their eyes met, and Gerard felt his heart
leap. His blood flooded his veins with warmth. The flush that flooded his
brother’s face suggested that he, too, was not unmoved by this first meeting in
sixteen years.
Sixteen years, Gerard counted backwards,
wondering if he had aged in that time as much as Everard had. But he must have,
considering all that he had gone through. Absently he ran his hand through his
hair, remembering that it too was streaked with gray, just as his brother’s
once coal-black beard was now softened to salt-and-pepper.
He stood staring at his brother as he brought
their father carefully down the steep stairs, but he did not see him. Instead
he was remembering the young man of sixteen years ago. Then, Everard had been
lean but not gaunt, tanned but not leathery as now. He had worn the armor,
surcoat, and mantle of the Temple that day, his long-fingered hand resting on
the simple black belt that held the standard-issue Templar longsword. And they
had fought bitterly.
Gerard
could still remember vividly the insults and recriminations they had flung at one
another that day―insults that had festered and ached like dirty wounds long,
long after other, more recent wounds had healed and been forgotten. By
contrast, all his own words seemed to have glanced off Everard’s unshakable
faith and self-assurance like harmless, childish blows. That was the worst of
it, that Everard had been right. Why did he blame him for being right? What
weight did those hot, truthful words have against twenty years of sharing the
same bed, the same board, the same companions, adventures, and memories?
Everard had reached the bottom of the stairs, and Gerard could read his own thoughts in his brother’s eyes. Two more strides and they could embrace again. But they had forgotten the old man.
Everard had reached the bottom of the stairs, and Gerard could read his own thoughts in his brother’s eyes. Two more strides and they could embrace again. But they had forgotten the old man.
The old man drew up abruptly, and the iron grip
on his younger son’s arm made the Templar halt with him. Everard had to break
eye contact with his brother and look questioningly at his father.
Father Theobald was bent nearly in two from
years of hunching over his books. He no longer needed to shave his tonsure,
because he had gone bald except for a fringe of thin, wispy white hair that
fell about his ears and on the back of his neck. He had the prominent,
beak-like nose that Everard had inherited, and thin, bloodless lips. His skin
was flecked with brown age marks and sagged in great sacks from his chin and on
his throat. But the eyes that squinted up at Gerard were sharp and black―like
Everard’s.
Though he
trembled with the effort, he raised his hand and pointed a finger at Gerard. “You
are my scourge and my damnation! You, with your Godlessness, wantonness, and
violence! For a lifetime you have been the instrument of God’s wrath―punishing
me for the sin in which you were sired! In the Name of His Great Mercy, can you
not cease?” The agony and the anger were so intertwined, it was impossible to
separate them. Together they gave the old man’s voice both strength and pathos.
His cry flew up to the vaulted ceiling overhead and cascaded back upon them
with lingering reverberations.
Gerard stared at the bent old man, sensing his
brother’s embarrassment in his averted face. He had been told this was his
father, and the resemblance to Everard confirmed it, but what did his father
know of him? He had last seen him when he was just a few days old, a whimpering
infant on a borrowed breast. He had never been there when as a boy Gerard had
been lost, lonely, or confused. He had not watched him grow to manhood, had not
taught him his letters or his catechism―much less taught him to ride and hunt
and fight or presented him with the spurs of knighthood. His father had not
once―in all his forty-three years―even sent him a letter inquiring after his
health and well-being. Gerard knew that his lifestyle invited criticism, but
what right did this stranger have to voice it? “What do you know of me?” he demanded,
in a tone of voice that sounded both haughty and scornful.
“You think I do not know of your misdeeds?” the
old man retorted in an outraged croak. “There has not been a single year in
which I was not tormented by news of your misdeeds. First it was my own brother
who reported to me faithfully all your impudence and transgressions. After
that I had my network of informers―my fellow Cistercians, Dominic Guzman, as
long as he lived, and papal emissaries. You were my scourge, and I was
determined to use it regularly for the benefit of my soul. But there has to be
an end. I am dying.” His voice, which had started strong and accusatory, ended
as a whimper.
Gerard answered with a shrug that made his
brother wince. “You never tried to guide my life before; what right have you to
intervene now?”
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